Start saying goodbye.

So Nathen and I will be moving back to Ma by the end of the week.  I want to take him to the beach one last time before we go. Since he hasn't been there since he was born. I want to say goodbye to my friends that I have made here. But it seems like there is not enough time. I have so much to do around the house, but I dont want to do it because the more I clean the less this house feels like its mine. Its starting to feel like it belongs to the next family. Nathen's room is all packed up, painted, and ready for the movers. Its just a blank room with a crib and some furinture, not the jungle and sports nursery I spent my entire pregnancy working on to make it perfect.

I will be blogging this journey as much as I can. Because frankly I want to remember this time. I want to remember the struggles we are facing entering in the civilian world. Even though my parent will be moving in with us to help out, it's still going to be hard on everyone. This is all Nathen has known. And yes he wont remember but every child has comfort zones. When we are out all day and Nathen isn't very happy, he knows when we get to the front door that he is home and he calms right down. He just knows.

This entire time living in NC we have done things on our own (mostly). Now we have to rely on family to help make it through until we get back on solid ground. Do I wish things were different? Of course. I wish we had a few more years in the Marine Corps. I wish we never had to struggle. I wish we never had to worry about when we were getting paid so we could have food in the house. But if I keep dwelling on what we don't have, I can never be grateful for what I do have.

So today my goal is to pack up my room, and spend this last week with my husband. He will be here until May. Finishing up work, and paperwork, getting the house inspected, and waiting for the movers to pack up our things. Each day until I move I will tackle a room at a time, So I dont forget anything. Which reminds me...BRING THE DIAPER SPRAYER!! haha I know I probably will forget but I will be my life saver.

On the topic of diapers, I have been handwashing diapers for about 2 weeks now. I really dont mind doing it. Even now that I have flats(grandma's diapers). Right now my covers are outside on the rack drying in the sun. and by the end of the day I just use the sink to wash all the dirties. Not a mess at all. I keep everything sanitized too. Its sad though because all of his cute diapers are packed away. They just take too long to dry. Ill be happy when we get all settled and I wont have to hand wash them anymore. But I gotta admit, I kind of enjoy the time spend doing the work.


I know my mind is all over the place this time. But what I'm most excited about when we get to our new house is time to learn how to sew. I've been wanted to for awhile now and my mom has my sewing machine. heck even a jo-ann's is not too far away! I want to go back to work at dunkin donuts. I really enjoyed working there. The customers, the co-workers, the actual work. It was fun for me. So I'm hoping they let me come back. We shall see.


Well I'm going to go watch some tv until Brandon comes home so I can run the the library and print out some coupons for free formula. TATA